One More... (AVF)

There's nothing that I wouldn't give just for one more second with Christoper Eli McCormick...
One More Call... One More Talk... One More Late Night Trip... One More Hug... One More Hickey... One More Joke... One More Laugh With Him... One More Wave... One More Chat... One More Message... One More Visit... One More Voice Mail... One More Email...
But those days are all gone... God took you too soon, but it still kills me not to pick up that phone...
I'd do anything for the chance to say I'm sorry, the chance to hug you and say have a wonderful journey, the days gone by... the sunsets, nothing I can do, will bring you back.
I hope you know, that you were my best friend... Now I'm in a rut...
Boy.. My kids miss you like crazy... I never though that day I got the news would come so soon...

The School Year Is Beginning Soon(AVF)

This year our son Cole starts Kindergarten. He is so ecstatic about school starting back up. The best part of all is his cousin goes to the same school as him. Same grade, just a different class. School shopping is all done.

Our Daughter Gloria, starts Great Start Readiness. She potty trained completely over the summer, she is excited to go to school for the first time.

All that's left to do is get Cole more pants, get the kiddos each another pack of undies, get Cole some size 4 shoes, and get Gloria mittens for winter time!!!

Trying to understand myself (AVF)

One of the hardest things for me in life is learning how to understand and accept myself. I think a lot of it has to do with many obstacles I have had in my life.

I've always said, Christopher Eli McCormick, was the male version of me. Our brains worked so similar. He was my best friend for eight years. I miss him everyday. He's now home with God. I miss that guy more than anyone will ever truly know. No matter what he always accepted me and we always had time to talk. I told him everything I was thinking. I have a hard time believing he's been gone over a year. I will always love you Chris. I miss you so much.

I don't understand half the thoughts I get sometimes. It scares the crap out of me. Especially being I feel alone with my thoughts most of the time.